Day One - Tracking My Art & Social Media Growth
Starting Out Feels... Intimidating
Starting a daily blog feels daunting, even when it’s about something I love—art and social media.
It’s been about a month (okay, week four to be exact!), and while my growth has been steady, it’s slower than I expected. I thought quitting my job, dedicating full-time hours, and investing in the right tools—watercolor supplies, courses, YouTube equipment—would make everything take off.
Newsflash: It didn’t. And that’s okay.
Right now, my progress feels like a slow drip from an old hose in a long-abandoned house. Maybe it's because I haven’t been actively promoting my work, or maybe my creative skills are still too basic. Either way, expecting instant success was probably unrealistic.
Keeping Myself Accountable
To stay on track, I’ve decided to write these mini daily blog posts. They’ll help me document how I feel each day, track my real-world efforts, and analyze my progress objectively.
I started a simple Google Sheet to log my YouTube uploads, subscriber count, and my Instagram follower growth. The goal? To see patterns, stay motivated, and remind myself that planning in my head doesn’t count as progress.
Also, I’ve missed writing.
Even though I don’t consider writing my best skill, it comes more naturally than drawing, painting, or filming and editing YouTube videos—at least for now. Writing about my journey makes everything feel more tangible. And if I can share my internal thoughts with others, maybe it’ll help someone else feel less alone in their creative struggles.
Looking Back from the Future
If my YouTube and art career ever take off, I want these posts to capture the struggles, thoughts, and small wins along the way. I hope they’ll serve as a reminder that growth isn’t linear but still worth the effort.
Maybe one day, I’ll read this and laugh at the things I once found overwhelming. Perspective is a funny thing.
The Ease and Joy of Writing for Introverts
Posting my art on Instagram and sharing my YouTube videos is fun, but writing is something I can do freely, without worrying about being seen or heard.
With art, I cringe if someone watches me draw. With YouTube, I shudder at the thought of someone overhearing me record. Even editing my videos feels oddly personal—I don’t like the idea of people around me witnessing the process.
And yet, I have no issue posting the final result online for the world to see. Somehow, the creative process itself feels too intimate to share in real-time.
Creative Process & Privacy
I can accept that my finished art or videos might look unpolished, but I prefer to keep the process private. If someone looks over my shoulder while I write, I barely notice—but if they did the same while I painted or recorded a video, I’d freeze.
This makes living with others tricky. I find myself waiting for moments of solitude to work on my creative projects, which sometimes leads to procrastination.
Creative Catharsis & Why I Won’t Quit
Like writing, creating art and making videos is cathartic. Even if they never lead to success, I’ll keep doing them.
Every time I create something, it feels like opening my heart to the world. I’m building this blog, my art, and my YouTube channel with the hope of finding an audience that resonates with my work. But even if no one does, I’ll keep posting, painting, and documenting my journey.
Because at the end of the day, creating is something I do for myself—and that’s enough.
